Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Lost: One brain

Today, I got to work on an actual file. I actually didn't have to fly solo; the senior tech ran the file and gave me a few tasks. But I'm nervous that I will fall flat on my face, because I had no idea how to do a number of the tasks I was assigned, and I kept having to get extra direction, sometimes more than once. The senior tech is really, unbelievably good at this, and I feel so dim next to her, not having any idea how things work. Okay, granted, she's been in this line of work for 37 years, and I just started 3 days ago. But still!

The highly specialized software confuses me. The templates don't make sense to me yet, and like an idiot, I can't figure out how to fill in the blanks. I'm confused, and honestly quite scared that I won't be able to learn it all.

I want to learn it. I want this job to work out. They seem so nice there. It's a choice job, and I want to keep it. I'm frustrated. I'm usually quicker on the uptake than I was today. Maybe tomorrow I'll do better.

Man alive, I miss my brain! I wonder where it has run off to. If you find it, would you please return it to me? Thanks!


Mary said...

Like you said, you are new. It takes time to make the transition over to any new position. You understand the theory and I know you will adapt. Just have faith in yourself. You will get through.

Draya's Mom said...

My brain takes hikes on regular occasions! Don't frett, your's will return eventually too :)