I worked to stop the blood that was pouring from J's nose and mouth, trying to console my little boy, while also admonishing him that "This is why Mommy and Daddy tell you not to jump off the furniture like that". I realized that he'd banged his mouth and nose but good, and he'd also smacked his chin and forehead. He had tooth punctures in both his upper and lower lips. I was worried about his mouth. His teeth. His nose. His head. Oh dear ... I hope his teeth are okay; his nose not broken; he has no concussion.
And J screamed and cried. And I applied pressure to his nose and mouth. And I phoned H. And I carried the crying J up the stairs, while he shrieked, waking N from his nap with screams of "I WANT MY N!!!" (It's sweet that he's so attached to his little brother.)
J went to emergency. He is okay. No breaks; no stitches. Popsicles to reduce the swelling in his mouth. And he feels better today. Sadly, he continues to leap off the furniture like a little maniac. But hopefully, he has learned to land on his feet and yesterday's faceplant will not be repeated.
Today, I feel agitated. It's a general unhappy rage. I'm not 100% certain of what has caused it, but it is there nonetheless. I don't like it. I wish it would go away. But these moods take time to pass. And so, I wait. And as I wait, I brood. And question everything and everyone around me. And wish for a happy headspace, which will only come when it is good and ready.
Mood swings are a part of me, and you'd think I'd be used to them by now. But apparently, I am not. So for now, I grit my teeth and wait for the tides to turn. I hope happy, fun posts will soon appear. They'll come; they always do. Just takes time.
6 comments:
Oh, Trish! Glad that J is feeling a bit better... but how terrifying!
As for the mood... Blech! That sucks. Would a little ice cream and some "you" time help? Hope your black cloud passes quickly.
Sadly, that story is all too familiar. It's nice to think they'll learn. It's nice to think it.
I totally know what you're saying about the mood swings. I've spent my life riding out the wave and not knowing what started it or what will end it; just waiting through it. I have to say that ever since I started seeing a counselor last spring I've been a lot more stable. It's such a relief!
My little guy did that at least every three months...anytime he tripped he landed right on his face...it's like they don't remember they have arms or something? Glad he seems okay!
Oh I've had so many split lips in this house. The blood is just terrifying.
And the bad moods are a part of you, it's just a little something in your brain trying to work itself out, don't worry. We all know how that is and we all have those same moments/periods of time.
*Hugs*
Glad he was OK! My son, who has a scar on his forehead from when he fell off the steps and slammed face-first into the edge of wall and had to have stitches, STILL jumps down the stairs to this day even though I remind him of the wall versus face battle. Injuries become like badges of honor for kids, I think!
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